Christmas time

     Son, Christmas time is not the same without you here. I got dressed for church this morning and I could hear your words telling me I looked pretty. You ALWAYS made sure to notice when I got something new or just to make sure you told me I was pretty. I miss my best friend beyond believe but I know you are in heaven with Jack and Robert and Noah. It seems like this world keeps losing kids we met during your time in Houston. I realize that you all are angels now and are in such a better place with no suffering and no sadness, but OMG it hurts downs here. I sometimes sit and think of the mistakes I made while you were growing up and wish so much that I could correct them but I can't baby. Please know that I loved you with everything in me and that sometimes when it seemed I was hard on you, I was only trying to give you the self discipline that your sickness required. I wanted you to get the most of your life that was possible and that required much more than was fair at times. Merry Christmas baby boy, please give little Noah a hug and kiss from Nana. See you soon son!!!!!